The only way to tell if it’s there is if it’s burning something.
The crackle can only be heard when burning something
And the smell can only be smelled when burning something.
And you can only see the smoke once it’s burning something. (Burning wood)
But did you ever think of how to distinguish a spiritual fire?
Warmth,
Love,
Passion,
The Gdly soul, that constantly yearns to be connected with Gd
To me those are the 3 senses of a spiritual fire.
It does have the ability to turn into a negative connotation though.
Burning
Hate,
Passion for material, worldly things,
The animal soul that constantly yearns to be connected to physicality, to negative attributes.
That is what Passover is for:
When we burn the Chametz, we are taking into account burning our personal negative limitations, and our negative senses- our animal soul.
We are not destroying it completely, because it’s power is so strong and so useful, if only it would be transformed to serving Gd, and not serving/ being connected/ desiring material worldly things.
Before this past year, I wasn’t sure why Gd chose to test me with fire,
But, now I’m sure.
Fire is passion.
I could have chosen to come out of this crazy experience spiritually burnt, hating Gd, and passionate for negative, unholy things.
But Gd didn’t let that happen.
Maybe it’s because I was a child of 8 years old. Innocent, not connected with the world yet, and no real physical desires besides for ice cream maybe.
Children have this extreme connection with Gd. They tap in pretty easily, because they’re still trying to figure out what life is even.
They are very adaptable to change, so maybe, Gd made this happen to me when I was a child because HE knew I would come out with this perspective.
Last year I was thinking about it.
If I was a little older or even my age now when that happened, I’m really not sure that I would have the same outlook- on Gd, Judaism, spirituality, and life in general.
Last year I started The Passionate Jew, and a could months after I created it (with the help of GD) I realized that Gd has given me the tools to make this. Maybe creating The Passionate Jew is my mission in this world, and the only way I would be able to create it would be only if I went through something that brought out my love, passion, warmth and desire to connect with Gd, through actual, physical fire. We never know why good or bad things happen to us.
But its Gd, our perspective, our choice, and our faith in Gd that keeps us going.
11 years have passed since the biggest trauma in my (and my family's) life.
All around the world my family burns the Chametz, thinking back to this day.
I could go on for hours, but I cant right now...
So i'm gonna end with saying THANK YOU.
THANK YOU TO GD FOR ALL OF THIS, for letting me have a stronger connection WITH YOU, for letting me come out with a positive outlook, and never giving up on me.
THANK YOU to my whole ENTIRE family, for being there every single second of my life, helping me with all of my bandages and stayed with me 24/7 in the hospital.
THANK YOU to all of my friends who have always been supported of me, who visited me in the hospital 11 years ago.
THANK YOU to myself for becoming me,
The Girl in the Red Hat.
for becoming the person I am today, growing self confidence and self love every single day.
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